Wow…I can’t believe I’m that girl…having a huge crush on a married guy? >.< What is wrong with me? I mean, to be fair I had the crush before he even knew the girl he married but still…

Talking about old times tonight with him made me really wish I could go back and do something different, take my chance with him while it was RIGHT THERE in front of me. One of us should have made a move.

Blah…but turns out things aren’t going well with their marriage. I feel bad for being kinda happy about that but oh well, I can deal with it lol. I mean it’s not like I’m just gonna go in and steal him or anything. And nothing will ever happen between us as long as he’s married, I won’t let it. But if things keep going bad and they divorce, whatever happens happens.

I want the chance to be with him, so bad…but if it doesn’t happen then it’s not meant to. It’s not like I’m gonna wait around for him or anything, I’ll still do my own thing, go out with other people, have fun.

And keep talking to him, because no matter what we’ll still always be friends.